the GOD theory!

I totally shudder on writing on flammable topics like religion, politics, GOD etc. It invites totally uncalled for debates. But this post is rather my observations and nothing else so you are allowed to differ.

Inspite of spending 12 years of my life in a convent girls school many are shocked that I turned out to be an atheist. And no I didn't choose it coz the name sounds so cool or emo-ish or to stand out among the totally devoted Indian audience, I chose it over the years of my observation. In my school, everyday early morning we had a 45 minute prayer session where we were suppose to stand all the while and join our hands to pray the catholic prayer. We were never given an option to skip the prayer service if we were of different caste or if one didn't believe in God. It was forced into us that God existed and that we had to stand and pray regardless of our religion. It was less of a prayer service and more of a torture as we fought hard to not faint during that time. I am not targeting any particular religion here coz I am sure it would have been the same if I had joined any other religion-based school. The point is why ain't we given a choice? Why is that since we are kids we are forced to follow rituals without providing us the rational approach? I understand that when we are toddlers we cannot make such decisions but atleast our parents should have a say whether they want their kids to pray or not.

All the while I was in school the prayer sessions made me aggressive coz no one told me why was there a need to pray 3 times a day- morning, afternoon and the end of the school. I instead resorted to being stubborn. I never closed my eyes while praying and always looked out of the window. I never joined my hands in the manner I was supposed to. I always gossiped with my friends during the prayer distracting them even. I am not telling this again coz I am proud of it, but when you don't explain a kid the whole idea of thanking and apologizing God all while even when you haven't done anything wrong you cannot expect anything better.

After I was out of the school I was glad that I didn't have to pray any longer but then I noticed that my life did not change after the transition from praying to not-praying. I still lived the similar constant life. At that stage of my life I was Agnostic- confused about the existence of God. Gradually other things started making me sick like when a student never thinks of God the entire year but will never forget to pray the night before the exam or when a man whose vocabulary consists more of abusive words then the articles of the English language never fails to go to a temple every Saturday or when my parents force me to pray only before important events like exams etc. Basically this lead me to believe that God is simply a hypothetical character in our minds to whom with can go to and say sorry to clean our evil deeds. After that God didn't exist for me and at that stage of my life I was an Atheist- a person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being or beings.

But this does not mean I have anything against the theists- believers in God, coz I am sure they might be having their own reasons for it. I respect it when my parents or friends visit a temple or a church its just if I go with them I go without any faith coz the whole idea seems irrational to me.

P.S. I repeat you are allowed to differ :P 
  
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